"it's good to be me..."

Greetings y'all ;

Sadly today's blog will be brief. While editing it on my phone the entire entry was deleted. That'll learn me edit it. Perhaps there is a lesson in it. To let go , to be resilient to not edit it.

So here is the synopsis . Quite honestly I am a tad sad because I written what in my mind was one of my better entries. Oh well the only direction is forward.

Billions of children have been born and raised so parenting is cake walk - right ? Well that is until we see the uniqueness of each person, moment and situation.

Yesterday was a day filled with little moments. From randomly selecting a different grocer and running into an ex co-worker who was my angel and kept me sane for two years. You know the kind of friend and no matter what believes in you and especially in my son. The kind of person I could call at midnight and know I'd get her full presence for an hour as she walked me through my mental, parental and professional mine fields. Seeing her reminded me how strong we are , how far we've come and what we've overcome.

Xander and ended up at the pool yesterday. Imagine that ? Once again we laughed til our sides hurt then kept on laughing. I can't remember the last time I saw his joie de vivre . He said " it's good to me , it's easy for me to be me but hard for others. " can't argue with that.

Later on back in the dude den we continued our giggle fest and I saw a special twinkle in his eye that had been missing for some time. As I soaked it in he said " daddy I'm happy " . Score , game , set , match. My job here is done. OK so not exactly but lets face it that's nirvana to a parents ear. During dinner I tried telling him how much I like him. Of course I love him , but I also like him for his inner Xanderness.

Who knows what today will bring. I can't predict the future. I can only cherish the past and embrace the present.

Wow - I'm still a tad blue about how different this is from my original stream of consciousness post. The core and essence are still there but the deliver- not so much. I guess the message is the key . " breathe in , breathe out, move on" ( jimmy buffet)

Thanks for reading again today ?