Greetings y'all :
As y'all know I'm all about self-reflection . I am not perfect nor do I expect to be perfect but do expect improvement. Well a very dear friend of mine suggested , oh heck said, it's more like self flagellation. Wow , I never felt of that way but I respect her opinion and perspective. I suppose it's a fine line betwixt the two.
Yesterday Zander was wound up . Logical solution would be do one of our infamous multi-mile adventures. Let Mowgli and Spiffy reconnect with nature. That always seems to work. Well why should start be logical now ? The answer my friends is because it's better to follow my instincts. I failed to do that on Saturday and it cost me time ,money and energy. I failed to that again on Sunday and it cost me time, energy and my self respect .
Sadly this was a house of anger and not love. I met anger with anger. I fueled the fire. I'm not looking for folks to tell me it's ok, because it's not ok. I did not come along my progeny I stood toe to toe ( metaphorically not physically ). Granted it turned around during his bath . He said " daddy next time you wanna yell at me hug me instead. Yelling hurts my brain" We finished by snuggling and reading.
I am human and I am learning. He is already 67 lbs and almost 52 inches tall and eight years old but he is only 67lbs ~ 52" tall and eight years old. It's his first time growing up. I failed to embrace his quirky and exuberant nation. But today is a new day. Learn from the past, remember the future and stay in the present .
Thanks for listening .
Its me again . I forgot to add that Alexander's ex neighbor and best friend he's ever had called him yesterday do help get him refocused. He talks often of missing this little princess whom he calls his sister. They were inseparable as neighbors. Heck I even thought of her as my daughter. So I want to thank the young ladies mother, another dear friend, who suggested the princess call and check on the Robinson Boys.
ReplyDeletedespite your occasional misgivings, you're doing better on your own than most "full" parent households. As the song goes..."you take the good you take the bad...".
Deleteyour most favorite spiffy calling friend!! :-)
Thanks , I just revisit my days and try to learn from mistakes . Some days I have plenty of mistakes to learn from.
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