Vow to be Bow

Greetings y'all :

Wow that was an incredibly quick month . I find It interesting re-reading my journal to see where we've been and where I've failed and even accidentally succeeded. But like driving it's best to merely glance in the rear view mirror , glance down the road and focus on what's immediately in my path.

I was rather stern with my first mate yesterday. It's not my personality and it's ineffective so I'm not sure why I do it. My only explanation , however Swiss cheese and weak, is that I felt lazy and just wanted to goof on my phone. So I helped create an artificial barrier between us and by golly that hurt. So today I will revert to limited technology and refocus on rebuilding my relationship with my little boy.

He doesn't get to see me all day. He even had a little crisis at the end of the day again because he was told he can't help me in my bus room after dismissal anymore . So why would I want to increase the chasm of separation and angst instead of bridging it? Epic Failure on my part.

My little first mate , during our snuggle up time that I finally got to, said " I like it better when you are bow instead of stern. Let's be bow together" that little play on words had " me down on knees of my heart" (jimmy buffet)

Even though my first mate cleaned more of his quarters yesterday than he had all month today I shall vow to be bow !

Thanks for reading folks!