Letting go

Greetings y'all :

Let me cut to the chase. We had a decent weekend but quite honestly I held us back. Twas nobodies fault but my own. No this is not self flagellation but self reflection. I held on to expectations and as noted previously that leads to suffering.

To be be succinct I spent most of my time from Friday evening to Monday morning striving for a few minutes to meditate or at least quiet my mind and thoughts and clear my head. To just relax. It never happened. I was squirrelly all weekend. One might say I was downright moody . My little chattering chipmunk merely longed for my attention yet because I was not present he became more animated and I became more hypersensitive to it. Yes he is working on picking up non verbal cues and I'm working on letting go and focusing on the here and now.

We did break our three day walking record by a mile but it was considerably less pleasant than last weekend. The walks were physically easier but because of my stubbornness the conversation was harder and less positive. I pray this does not affect my lad this week. He is very sensitive and if I'm stressed he is stressed, if I'm agitated he is agitated.. That my friends is the reality of living with a Quirky and Exuberant child. I can only learn and move forward and be aware of his sensitivities. I love my wee bonnie lad, he deserves a father who is present and positive.

Thanks for reading today folks... Let go of those expectations and remain focused.